TAMAT

atas dua
bawah ada tiga
jangan cari aku

aku xde lagi di sini

ruang ini sudah obsolit

teraih sudah matlamat sulung

kerna sebaik-baik tempat kembali

aku telah pulang ke medan yang lepas

kiranya kau mengerti kata-kata ku ini

akan kau tahu dimana pentas sebenarku

kejarlah aku di dimensi itu

itu hanya jika engkau tau mana hendak mencari

dan tahniah kepada mereka yang berjaya mengelongkar kata gelapku
di ruang ini

ini yang terakhir

suku daur kecil telah berlalu

blogger bosan




noktah


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Botak, IOU1

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HIDUP NI XLEH RWIND

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Kotak Pejabat

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an original production of
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H O N O L U L U

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' T W E N T Y - O V E R - T W E N T Y '

R A D I O - D R A M A - P R O J E C T

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COMING SOON THIS SYAWAL

(after SAT that is. hahaha)

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Happy Eid!

^_^

raya!raya!raya!

this was my ecard during my time in asis

bajet dah dah sampai oversea. hahaha

malas nak buat yg baru

besides, i didn't quite use it last raya

so ni kira meng-qada'-kan ah

mcm baju raya aku

tahun lepas xpakai sgt

so tahun ni pakai ah balik

hahahaha

neway, it's the thought that count

so here goes:

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Selamat Hari Raya

Maaf Zahir Batin

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to:

mak

for lying and hiding things from you most of the time

abah

for always disagreeing with you and not being able to meet all of your expectations

ayong & angah

for being a nuisance little brother

teh wahida

for all the wrong things i did and the right things i didn't

sadid, ipan, ayie, kash & naeem

for not being able to fully reimburse your kindness

for supporting me in my time of needs

syakir, afiq, hanip, haris, syamim & all j4[+] ballers

for not being able to have fun together like the ol' days

kita sume dah ada haluan masing2

hahahah

thanks for all the cacat time we had together

eric, botak, muyak, niro & acap

bunkmates aka the muyakist 407

sorry aku selalu marah2 korg

n sorry sebab aku selalu melalak ngan gitar+suara aku yg x sedap ni

nanti aku sedapkan suara aku

hahahah

friends from honolulu

maap klau aku ada kekurangan atau terkasar bahasa

selama aku jadi klas rep korg

n maap sebab aku x photostet sat nye extra test

yg miss asma kasi tu

aku tgh malas waktu tu

hahahahahahahahahahahaha =P

n trimas kerana mnceriakan aku dgn kesengalan korang!!

goodluck for sat and toefl!

stay cacat!

friends in different program from intec

maap atas segala salah dan silap

intec ni besar sgt la, so susah nak jumpe korg

harap bleh jumpe selalu

new friends from intec

thanks for being my friends!

really happy to meet you guys!

sorry klau x tegur walaupun jalan dkt sebelah je

n sorry klau aku kacau2 @ gurau lebih2 ngan korg

aku sarkastika

huhu

friends from jpkc

sorry aku x buat keje n slalu ponteng meeting. hahaha

friends, rivals & seniors from asis

sorry for being such a skematik pengawas

friends from jess

sorry for being out of contact

teachers & lecturer

sorry if i ever offended or being a burden

i really appreciate your patience with me

friends elsewhere

mintak maap la byk2 atas segala kesalahan aku

samada yg korg masih igt lagi atau yg dah lupe

maaf memaafkan itu amalan mulia

huhu ^_^

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family & relatives

selamat hari raya!

maaf zahir batin!

tahun balik kampung kejap je

ada exam 4hb syawal

sedih T_T

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jiran2
mintak maaf klau ada buat salah

esp pakcik shukor

kitorg x sengaja nak kemekkan bas skola pakcik ngan bola bball

terima kasih sebab bersabar dgn kitorg

n terima kasih sebab slalu simpankan basikal, jam, kunci atau barang2 yg kitorg tertinggal dkt court

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semoga aidilfitri kali ini dipenuhi dengan makna

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ramadhan

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jangan biarkan

ramadhan pergi begitu saja

jgn jadi mcm aku

berapa kali dah tuang jemaah tarawekh

alih2 buat solo pagi2 buta

hahaha

kejarlah selagi termampu

kepada yg kurang pencahayaan macam aku dlu

xde arti kepada perkataan terlambat

cubalah

baru kau kenal apa itu ramadhan

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belum cuba belum tau la mat

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penuhi syawal dgn makna ramadhan

dakwah kecil aku

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Epiphany

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aku dah puas
letih dah
bermain dengan kata
ambiguos
samar
aku x suka itu
tak nak lagi
percayakan sesuatu
yg akhirnya menjadi sebuah ilusi
semata2 untuk menggaluri kata
kata yg kononnya indah itu

art need sacrifices?
heck.
sacrifices that worth a naught
sudah la
aku dah bosan
aku nak hidup dalam realiti
to live it to the fullest in this world
to my heart's content
xde lagi dongeng
xde lagi fairy tale
hidup ni bukan manga
biarpun seni itu lenyap
namun aku ada benda lain yg lebih berharga


realitiku


liven let live!

all those blogs unbrowsed
all those poems unread
all those songs unsung

a discreet memory

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let bowling for soup be my lullaby

Aiming for the Acme

fuyoo!
Univeristy of Pennsylvania

SAT Critical Reading-------650 - 750
SAT Math-------------------680 - 770
SAT Writing----------------660 - 750
TOEFL-------------------------100
SAT II



University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign

SAT Critical Reading-------540 - 670
SAT Math-------------------630 - 740
TOEFL--------------------------79



University of Wisconsin-Madison

SAT Critical Reading-------560 - 670
SAT Math-------------------620 - 710
SAT Writing----------------560 - 670
TOEFL--------------------------80



These are the universities that I'm applying for. Yup, they are all the top-notch; ranging from Most Competitive, +Very Competitive and Highly Competitive. As you can see the first one, UPenn, is an Ivy League [wow!]. I never thought of aiming for Ivys before. All I did thought of was wanting to have a smooth sailing life over there in the States; having moderate peer pressure, living comfortable life among Malaysian circles, and having fun lavishly! hehehe

But after a few months living in Intec, I had my thoughts straighten up. People all around me had opened up my mind. Staffs in the OSSP encourage me to apply for Ivys. Especially Kak Zira. She said that I have potential. It would be a waste if I don't grab this opportunity. Thanks to her I realised that. My lecturers also advised me. I have all my friends encouraging and rooting for me; especially my classmates, Honoluluians and my nestmates, C1407 or arcanely known as the Muyakist. There's my classmate saying this "ala, hang pandai la. mesti celuih punya". Like I bought that. I just pretended I did la. wek wek. padan muke ko Aziz. hahahaha

Well, restoring verisimilitude, after having those positives inputs, I started thinking. True, it would be a waste and a shame if I don't grab this chance. All I need to do is just try. I already have everyone pointing me towards the right direction. What's left is just for me to go storming towards that goal. Thanks everyone =)


gua xda hal punya!





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Merdeka 51

tribute to Malaysia
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bagi aku merdeka ni mcm lesen kereta ah
kenape aku cakap mcm tu?
sebab aku nampak merdeka ni macam satu medium yg membenarkan kita memandu negara kita
macam lesen kerete la
dengan mengikut hala dan arah kita sendiri
untuk membawa kita kemana yang nak kita tuju
kemajuan

cuba kita bayangkan kita xde lesen kerete
xde ilmu nak bawak kete
kita xbleh la nak belasah je bawak
kejahilan itu tinggi risikonya
jadi
mcm mne kita nak sampai ke tempat yang kita nak tuju?
jalan kaki
memang kita boleh jalan kaki
sampai tu pun memang lah sampai
tp persoalannya
bila kita nak sampai?
orang lain dah lama sampai
kita tak sampai-sampai lagi
orang lain dah jauh tinggalkan kita kehadapan
dah xnampak dah kelibat
asap pun dah hilang
kita tercicir lagi dekat belakang
berjalan lagi

lagi satu
klau takde lesen
kite slalu pikir kite bleh tumpang kerete orang lain
macam orang dlu2 pernah buat
mula2 memang mcm idea yg bernas
tp bila pikir-pikir balik
orang yang kita nak tumpangkan kite tu nak ke bawak kite pergi mne yang kite nak pegi?
klau ada pun
apa yang orang tu dapat klau dia tumpangkan kita?
mesti dia nak sesuatu sebagai balasan
xkanlah dia nak bawak free2 je
mne ada benda percuma dlm dunia ni
random act of kindness?
betul ke ada orang mcm tu?
nak ke orang tu bawak kite tanpa harapkan balasan?
balasan tuhan kelak?
apa jadi klau org tu aethis?
haih
mcm2 dlm otak ni

klau main tumpang gak
kang ntah ke mne org tu bawak kite
tak menghala pun ke mana yg kau nak pegi
makin jauh adalah
klau jadi mcm tu xpe lagi
ntah2 benda lain plak yang jadi
lagi susah
kne rompak ke
kne rogol ke
mne kite nak tau
sedar2
kita dah tersadai dkt tepi jalan
elok2 duit banyak
elok2 'suci'
sume dah xde
hilang
tercemar
rugi je

jadi
nak ke negara kita jadi mcm tu?
dlm sejarah dah pernah
cukuplah dengan silam itu
biarkanlah ia menjadi pengajaran
kadangkala
kesilapan itu perlu
baru sedar skit kepala otak ni
xde lah nak berangan je


konklusinya
jagalah 'lesen kerete' kite ni jangan kasi hilang mcm aku ^_^
hargainya
manfaatkannya

dan jangan berangan lagi ^_^







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Pantine - Tiada Lagi Kusutan Di Kepala

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aku dah nampak realiti aku
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walau aku tak dpt terima kasih kau itu
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biarlah aku sorang je yg berterima kasih
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terima kasihlah kerna terus terang

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jangan risau

aku baek la

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sudah direntap pokoknya

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lagi kau robek tanah itu

SIAPA DIA?

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fuck! fuck! fuck!

cakap saja pada aku siapa dia

aku takut dengan apa yang aku pikirkan

jangan biar aku serabut lagi

haih, begitu cepat

oh lupe, aku sebenarnya yg lembab

buta dan jahil selama ini

x sedar rupanya ada pihak ke-3